As A Daughter, I REALLY Love You.

Sometimes I hate the way I think about my parents. While I never try to realize how strong they survive to make me being " someone" someday. I angry to them. I hate them. I talk behind them. Then what? Hurt them? Yeah, I did.

Sometimes I realize how bad my thoughts.But I just cannot change it. It insists me to be as I want to be. Worse, I let it grow in my life casually. Again, YEAH, casually.

I realize that Mom hold me close to her. Either my daddy does. But they try to figure out what am I and who I am. They let me free to arrange everything in my life. Still, I keep begging to get more from them. Even though they hardly give it to me, but still they manage to fulfill my wishes.

Well, I'm just a daughter whom figure an actor as a daddy is cool. I'm just a daughter whom think a fashionable mom is great. I'm just a girl whom think money could buy everything. I'm just a girl whom hate the rules and requirement. I'm just a girl whom wanna success without any work. Stupid.

Once, I found myself crying out loud in the night. Just because of broken heart.
Once, I found myself surrender. Just because of my suck school schedule and I failed on it.
Once, I found myself rude and weird. Just because I don't have a glamour life.
Sometimes, I realize how fool I am.
Sometimes, too rarely to happen.
Then I found myself behaving just like how worst I've done.

Dear them who love me since I haven't came to this world yet,
So sorry to make you disappointed many times. So sorry for doing such as a damn-fool girl. So sorry for keep telling that I'm right and you do wrong. So sorry for acting as I AM mature when I AM not. So sorry for let you into my trouble and have the responsible for it.

I just cant stand how I really want to be mature soon. I just cant stand how I want to be MORE when I know I cant. I just cant stand alone. :')